Meditation J 13,21-33.36-38

Stand in God’s presence. God is present here and now, looking upon you with love.

Ask for the Grace: I will beg God our Lord that all my intentions and actions may be directed purely to the praise and service of His Divine Majesty

Fixing a place, a picture for meditation: Jesus and his disciples eat a meal, probably in the house of the evangelist Mark. See a table with food and drinks. Probably it is not high. In those days meals were usually eaten lying down, semi-recumbent because of the convenience. Stay there. Hear the Judas’s betrayal, Peter’s denial. Feel the atmosphere of Jesus leaving, saying goodbye to Him.

Ask for the fruit of meditation: for the desire to stay, to be always with Jesus

1.I encourage you to enter the considered scene of the last supper. Try to find for yourself a place at the table where Jesus sits with his disciples. Look at Jesus, who is deeply troubled and testified. In the Greek translation there is the word etarachthe, which describes a rough sea or an earthquake. So how great is the strength of feelings and emotions that Jesus experiences. He probably knows that his life as a human being is coming to the end. Perhaps he feels that he sits with his disciples for the last time. With all disciples, including Judas who betray him. Jesus speaks of the traitor, perhaps he hopes that he will be able to attract Judas to himself, that this last chance of retreat from betrayal will be noticed by Judas. Feel a certain drama of this scene. Be with Jesus during this supper. Maybe there will be some conversation between you and Jesus? You are a beloved disciple of Jesus, too. So maybe you will put your head on Jesus’ chest? Stay with him. Today he needs you.

2.The disciples have been with Jesus for three years. During this time, they could look closely at what Jesus says and does. And yet they do not understand anything. They are unable to see the traitor among themselves, they do not understand the announcement of the death of Jesus. Peter, who declares that he will give his life for Jesus, for a moment he will deny him. Disciples are close and far away at the same time. Jesus is among the closest friend, but still lonely and misunderstood.

Look at Jesus’s loneliness. After all, he built relationships with the apostles so much! And they behave as if they do not know him. Jesus has no grudge, he does not reproach anyone. He still trusts and still falls in love with a man.

a. Look at your life, relationships. How many times, when, in what situations did others let you down? How did you behave then? What did you do with your pain and regret?

b. After betrayals, Jesus goes on, he goes to Golgotha. It is the way of his love, of mercy for man, for you. What is your path of mercy?

3.Look again at the meditative scene. Jesus treats everyone the same, he is the same for each man – full of love, although in his eyes you can see human fear and disagreement about what is happening. For Jesus, however, the most important thing is to fulfill the Father’s will, to be close to Him. Put yourself in the place of Jesus and see what is born in your heart in this situation, what is the inner light, hope for you. What is the light in the difficult situations of your everyday life? Where do you get your strength? You can ask for the gift of courage in the difficult moments of your life.

 

Meditation: St Ignatius encourages in The Spiritual Exercises No. 2 … Because not so much knowledge, but internal feeling and the taste of things please and saturate the soul, that is, we stay where we feel interior movement … and nervously do not try to go on.

The final conversation: Spend a little time at the end, being with God, Jesus, the Holy Spirit….as you would with a good friend: sometimes talking, sometimes listening, sometimes being together in silence. Speak to God about your feelings. Remember that times when ‘nothing is happening’ can also be significant. When you’re ready, end your prayer by saying thank you or using words that are familiar,such as the Lord’s Prayer (Our Father)–whichever feels right and comfortable. (The Spiritual Exercises No.54)

Meditation J 8,21-30

Stand in God’s presence. God is present here and now, looking upon you with love.

Ask for the Grace: I will beg God our Lord that all my intentions and actions may be directed purely to the praise and service of His Divine Majesty

Fixing a place, a picture for meditation: See Jerusalem, the Mount of Olives. Jesus is there. Then he descends from the mountain and goes to the temple. People are there, too. Jesus sits down and begins to speak. He begins to prepare people for his going away. See everyone gathered and look at the temple as it looks. Hear and see the misunderstanding of Jesus’ words on human faces. You can make room for yourself in this scene.

Ask for the fruit of meditation: that I would always desire to have my eyes and heart open to the action of Jesus in my life

 1. Jesus says simply: I am going away.

He already knows that his mission on earth is coming to the end and he wants to prepare for it those who are gathering around him. It could have been a difficult time for Jesus. Probably the attitude of the people, their lack of understanding, their supposition that he may want to kill himself, did not help him. Jesus leaves and perhaps he feels kind of defeated, not fulfilling his task. Humanly, but from God’s perspective, he did took on a completely different dimension. Jesus fulfilled the will of God until the end.

a. Maybe today it is worth to look at your life, your defeats, complexes, what is so glaring looking humanly – name these cases specifically. How can God see the same things? Maybe what is a failure for you – it is a success for God, maybe your complex in the eyes of God is a beautiful work of art…? Think about it and say thank you.

b. How can you help and how do you want to help Jesus during this time of his going away? Look around you, there are people go away too – not only physically die, but also mentally, spiritually. In each of them lives Jesus, just like in you. How will you help them? Maybe you need help yourself – what do you do good for yourself?

2. …you will look for me, but you will die in your sin….if you don’t believe…

In our life, we look for things that are precious to us that feed us. We are looking for what we have already tasted, experienced, hence our longing and searching. Perhaps that is why Jesus says if you do not believe, that is, you will not experience him, you will not meet him, you will spend your life searching Jesus, because you will not know what you are looking for. And if you find, you may not recognize that it’s the One you are looking for.

What is your faith? How do you experience God’s presence, God’s action in your life? What do your encounters with Jesus look like? What is the difference in the experience of going with Jesus and spending time in constant searching him? How does it look in your life?

3.I AM

He is. He – Jesus, the Son of God is. Jesus says several times: I AM (I AM is also the name of God, whom he introduced himself to Moses: IHWH – YAHWEH – I AM WHO I AM). Jesus speaks about his identity. He knows who he is, no matter what others say about him and think and what image they carry in him.
a. What is your identity? Who are you – a child created in God’s image?

b. What was it in Jesus’ words that many believed in Him?

c. Jesus is always present. Take a few minutes in His Presence, feel His Love for You.

 

Meditation: St Ignatius encourages in The Spiritual Exercises No. 2 … Because not so much knowledge, but internal feeling and the taste of things please and saturate the soul, that is, we stay where we feel interior movement … and nervously do not try to go on.

The final conversation: Spend a little time at the end, being with God, Jesus, the Holy Spirit….as you would with a good friend: sometimes talking, sometimes listening, sometimes being together in silence. Speak to God about your feelings. Remember that times when ‘nothing is happening’ can also be significant. When you’re ready, end your prayer by saying thank you or using words that are familiar,such as the Lord’s Prayer (Our Father)–whichever feels right and comfortable. (The Spiritual Exercises No.54)

Meditation J 5,1-16

Stand in God’s presence. God is present here and now, looking upon you with love.

Ask for the Grace: I will beg God our Lord that all my intentions and actions may be directed purely to the praise and service of His Divine Majesty

Fixing a place, a picture for meditation: See Jerusalem. There is the Sheep Gate, next to which is the Bethesda pool with five porticoes. In these lay there are a large number of sick people: blind, lame, crippled. Jesus comes there on the Sabbath. He notices a man who has been ill for a long time and he heals him. The man gets up, takes his mat and walks away. Maybe you are in this scene, too.

Ask for the fruit of meditation: for the ability to see and open to God’s actions in my life

1. A sick man, for the entire period of his illness – 38 years, wanted to be healed by putting him into the pool. Evangelist John does not mention if the man was looking for other ways to get out of his disease. It is also not written on what was the ill. Notice that the word disease means not only psychological and physical but also weakness. So, is it not possible to say that this man caught his weakness for many years, so much so that he could not make another move and notice other possibilities, because this weakness obscured him? Therefore, perhaps his disease was not his weakness, but his attachment to it and persistent holding on one way of healing?

A sick man is like as a reflection each of us, our problems, our lives. Do not we sometimes focus our attention on our weakness, our fear, maybe even sin, so that this weakness becomes our god, mammon? Is attachment to one pattern of action not our mat from which we can not break away and look for other solutions? Perhaps schematic, fixation of the problem, difficulties does not allow us to see Jesus coming to us – in specific situations and in specific people, to help us to be well.

How is it in your life? What is your mat, your weakness? What are you giving yourself permission to look for, discerning the best possible solutions? How does this process look for your specific situations? What spaces will you let Jesus heal in yourself?

2. Jesus asks: Do you want to be well?

Jesus does not force you into your life. Of course, he is with you all the time, but he will do nothing against your will. That’s why you need to know if you want to be healthy. Maybe it is not easy to be healthy at all? Your disease and weakness can be a good excuse for taking responsibility for your life, for human relations and for relationships with God. Not once can you hear: that was God’s will, it was apparently supposed to be. But is it really? In today’s Gospel, Jesus says to the sick person: Rise, take up your mat, and walk. Nowadays, this might sound: if you want to live life fully in God, here and now, go out of your comfort zone, look for the greater Goods and share them with others.

What is Jesus inviting you for today?

3. Jesus heals a sick person on a Sabbath, on a day when he was forbidden to do anything. He is guided in his actions by fulfilling the will of God, showing the greatest Love. Jesus knows that the consequences of his total surrender and obedience to his Father will not be easy to accept even for him. However, the Love of the Son to the Father and to every man, to You is so great that it is the only driving force of all of Jesus’ actions.
See and name the goods that you have received today, and which are signs of God’s love for you. After all, you are His beloved daughter / His beloved son.

 

Meditation: St Ignatius encourages in The Spiritual Exercises No. 2 … Because not so much knowledge, but internal feeling and the taste of things please and saturate the soul, that is, we stay where we feel interior movement … and nervously do not try to go on.

The final conversation: Spend a little time at the end, being with God, Jesus, the Holy Spirit….as you would with a good friend: sometimes talking, sometimes listening, sometimes being together in silence. Speak to God about your feelings. Remember that times when ‘nothing is happening’ can also be significant. When you’re ready, end your prayer by saying thank you or using words that are familiar,such as the Lord’s Prayer (Our Father)–whichever feels right and comfortable. (The Spiritual Exercises No.54)

Meditation Mt 18, 21-35

Stand in God’s presence. God is present here and now, looking upon you with love.

Ask for the Grace: I will beg God our Lord that all my intentions and actions may be directed purely to the praise and service of His Divine Majesty

Fixing a place, a picture for meditation: See Jesus among people and disciples. Maybe you are there too. Look at everyone gathered. Note how Peter approaches Jesus and asks a question about forgiveness. Listen to Jesus’ answer and his story of a servant, whom the king forgave the loan, but the same servant could not give the debt to another servant. How does Peter react, other listeners to these words? How do you react?

Ask for the fruit of meditation: for a grace and thirst of forgiving others and yourself 

1. … how often must I forgive…

a. To forgive (as given in the New Testament Dictionary of Xavier Leon -Dufour SJ) means to let go free, restore the proper relationship between two beings, broken by the sense of offense. It can also be translated as separating the act from the person who hurt us, and thus saving her dignity. However, forgiveness is not the same as forgetting, because it is difficult to erase the injuries from our memory. Rather, it is to find an understanding of why something happened, why I was hurt by a word, act … It means to look whether I did not contribute myself, did not provoke such behavior of another person. Forgiveness is not easy, it is more than our act of will, it also involves our imagination, intelligence, sensitivity, faith and heart. Forgiveness does not necessarily mean, that we still have to be in a good relationship with another person, sometimes it leads to breaking relationships or building it again.What is your understanding of forgiveness?

b. When we get hurt, we may want revenge. This is a normal reaction. The only question is, what do we do with this desire for revenge? If we follow it and start to slander the other person, spread all the bad stories about that person around, we can’t say we are better than the person? It doesn’t mean, that we shouldn’t talk about it with our trusted person. More – it is necessary, because we need someone, who help us objectify the situation. It may be worth taking the tension, give time to survive the loss, hurt.Remember the situation, where you have been hurt. Look at your behavior, you may have a desire for revenge. What did your forgiveness process look like?

2. Forgive yourself

a. The commandment of love says: love your neighbor as yourself. With forgiveness is the same: first we have to learn to forgive ourselves to be able to forgive the other person. Among people, you can meet two extreme approaches:
– constant, permanent blaming and suffering, despite the sacrament of reconciliation. It’s a bit of putting a loop on yourself that moves away from Life.

– justify – which is not forgiveness but it can lead to the appearance of wounds with double strength.

I encourage you to face the truth of yourself today. See what harm you did to yourself, others and what you have suffered. What do you find things, spaces, events that you do not accept, do not like or are ashamed of. Think about why you dislike them? What do they teach you? What goods can you draw from them for the future? Look at yourself and those from whom you have suffered: what is positive you have in yourself and what they have.

b. Jesus forgives you every day. Love is forgiving, releasing. Look at yourself with this Love and forgive yourself. If that is difficult, ask Jesus to help you accept these difficult things, so that you can forgive yourself. This will lead you to freedom and create another space in you, that God’s Love will be able to fulfill.

Meditation: St Ignatius encourages in The Spiritual Exercises No. 2 … Because not so much knowledge, but internal feeling and the taste of things please and saturate the soul, that is, we stay where we feel interior movement … and nervously do not try to go on.
The final conversation: Spend a little time at the end, being with God, Jesus, the Holy Spirit….as you would with a good friend: sometimes talking, sometimes listening, sometimes being together in silence. Speak to God about your feelings. Remember that times when ‘nothing is happening’ can also be significant. When you’re ready, end your prayer by saying thank you or using words that are familiar,such as the Lord’s Prayer (Our Father)–whichever feels right and comfortable. (The Spiritual Exercises No.54)